ilovemylife

2012-02-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

goshhhhhhh
just came back from tuition and felt like using the com..
i really dun wanna moveT.T
super tiredD:
eeeekkkksssss, theres math and bio test next mondayy~~
and i haven started revising~~
im so gonna die=.=
hais.
im stressed up:(
thneres just too much to do and too much to think about.:(

2012-02-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

CHOICES

2012-01-15T17:17:00.001+08:00

Day 4

2012-01-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

Things are going in the wrong direction

im afraid.

2012-01-11T20:28:00.004+08:00

Orientation was pretty fun today..:)
just super duper tiring..>.<
I just wanna say i have great classmates and OGLs,
not forgetting to mention, an awesome house, HOMA.
OMG, like seriously! I love it!>.<
Especially when they talked bout Homanites must have integrity, i almost cried, LOL!
i dont know why though.. just too touched about how awesome people can be~
lalala:)
Hope things will be fine tomorrow too~

i choose to be happy.

2012-01-10T19:50:00.003+08:00

Was looking through Facebook and its like, everyone could do so well in their lives.

I should too.

2012-01-09T18:58:00.002+08:00

B3. eeks. sobs.
I think i didnt work hard enough..
after reading so many self motivational books, i have decided that i've got no one else but me to blame for this result.
but if i try harder, hopefully, things will turn out well the next time.
>.<
The first day of SH was weird..
i mean like im totally not used to the new uniform, new teachers, new class..
:(
I guess it takes time..D:
It made me reflect alot though o.0
such a weird day:(

2012-01-08T16:56:00.003+08:00

eeeekkkksss, im totally not excited for tomorrow=.=
i thought i would be.. like 2 years ago?o.0
hais, and going to school with four poor blisters on my foot wont help either..
well, i did pointe after 2 months yesterday, and cos my in grow nail, i took out my toe pad..
and omg, after 15 minutes, i got 4 blisters and bleeding...T.T
but anyway, i read alot of self motivation books since the morning today.
LOL!
There are niceeeeee eh!!:D
and while reading it, i finally came up with my new year resolutions:D

1. Have a healthy Lifestyle
2. Be happy everyday :D
3. Practice dizi four times a week
4. Grow Fatter
5. Make doing housework a habit
6. Read all the Times magazines
7. Read the newspapers Four times a week

hahaha:) quite standard.. :D

2011-12-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

Regrets.

Or is it just me making myself feel so terrible?

2011-12-17T00:41:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, when i sit down and think about it, i really want to be a better person.

2011-12-12T00:53:00.001+08:00

Why are things like this..
why is today so different..?
i've gotten stronger

2011-12-07T21:10:00.001+08:00

到了这个熟悉的地方。。。怎么感觉这房子好陌生，好陌生。
没有外婆带着笑容来迎接我，没有一看到对方就急着上前拥抱。
一踏进家门，不见那断掉不知多少次的拐杖，也不见那从来都没人用的轮椅。
抬头一看，却看到了外婆的照片，但她并不在笑。
那张照片是前几个月在丧礼上的照片，看到它，也一样让我感到心痛。
我走到沙发上，准备开始整理书包，又发现外婆用的药油不在了。
走进房间，她的床，浴巾，也消失了。
曾今让我感到多么好奇的假牙也不在了。
我记得您曾经会因为我要回来而特地做肉粽，
去夜市场的时候，也会记得我不吃有辣椒的汉堡包，
您知道我喜欢吃哪种菜，哪种肉。。。
您知道我不喜欢吃鱼，就会用手拔给我吃。
但现在，全部都不会再发生了。
我想哭，真的很想哭。
但我又算什么，长期和外婆住在这里的家人们都一直忍到现在，我还能哭吗？
我也只能默默地想念您了。
waiting for your reply..:(

2011-11-10T22:46:00.001+08:00

gosh. the last exam of the year is finally over...:)
Yay~
went to qiu lao shi's house to eat alot of yummy food!!
It turned out to be rather embarrassing>.<
but its alright after awhile..:)
all i want to say is that the self proclaimed besty of 2010 and 2011 will always remain a besty chinny~:)
Thanks:D (i hope you know what im talking about)
anyways, i went to NEX Fairprice to shop just now..
love supermarkets!:D
bought ham, bread, chicken and sushi...
ah, i dunno what else i should say..
im feeling rather emo ever since i came home
i just went through granny's pictures on facebook..>.<
really really miss her..:(
or maybe its cause im really tired then i 胡思乱想 or sth..
my eyes have been half open from the afternoon..
but i dun wan to sleep..
so im wondering about what i should do now..
there are so many things to do but i dun wanna move>.<

2011-10-29T12:48:00.001+08:00

wheee~
I LOVE SATURDAYS~^^~

2011-10-28T18:52:00.000+08:00

hmm..last day of school..:(
Me quite 舍不得..
4G has been a really great class...>.<
but i think we didnt bond alot..:( thats why im sad..
but everyone is like so nice...T.T
and CHINNY HO CHIN HUI!!!
although i didnt show it, but im really sad k!!!!! T.T
felt like crying when i waved goodbye>.<
abit la:D
i didnt wanna part with chinny cos i think she will forget me T.T
hahahah:D
but really, thank you for being such a AWESOMEEEE besty!!!!!
heehee^^
well, things got better!!!
YAY!!!!:D
IM HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okie, im not happy that 4G will split okie, im just happy bout today:D
okie~~ i shall go play with myself now~
BYES!
you made my day too...:)

2011-10-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

我为何要把自己弄得那么辛苦。。。？
我真搞不懂。
如果这样下去，我可能会崩溃。
不崩溃也有可能会发火
不发火也就一定会哭
我怎么那么傻。:(
我真心希望事情能回到原来的样子。。。

Mixed feelings

2011-10-25T21:36:00.003+08:00

2011-10-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

okie, so i chose Bio Chem Math and GSC H1...
wow.
okie, i never thought i would change to GSC..
i asked mommy and she said GSC would be easier for me..
okie.. hais:(
decisions are so hard to make.
im tired of it.
everybody is like angry with me...
:(
anyways, chinese was pretty okie today..
but got alot of homeworkT.T
oh man:(
eeeks.
im upset!!!
very very upset!!!
T.T...
shucks
is it my fault? should i have been angry instead? or is it all just a test?

2011-10-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

im angry. i really am:(

im angry that im doing everything alone.

2011-10-24T18:42:00.006+08:00

oh gosh

i just submitted my cca application form=.=
okie, i feel weird again
i mean, i placed CO as my core cca, but also added in Environment club as a second cca.
hmm, and my subject combi will MOST LIKELY be Bio, Chem, Math and CSC h1.
great. not like i got a choice anyway.
everyone tells me Bio and Chem are both heavy in content, so do i still have time for a second cca?
as in, for someone as slow as me... i will probably need to spend twice the amount of effort to memorize the same thing as everybody else...
but then, im interested T.T
I want to contributing to the environment! T.T
okie, sounds very weird, i know, but its true:(
but i love CO too!!
so i cant possibly give that up right...?
ahhhhhhhh... im sad:(
cos 我自相矛盾..
i need to study very hard in SH to catch up... then plus the fact that i want 2 ccas..
as in, they said it will only be on thursday morning, but i think it would be more than that...
hais.
i dunno what to dooooo
:(
:(
:(
hais, nvm, since i have already submitted, i shall give it a try..
and for now, i think i should start on my 作文和应用文 >.<
eeekks.

2011-10-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.
suddenly O Level HCL seems so nearT.T
scaryyyyyy.. got to start reading newspaper and chinese books now...
i wan to score well in this..:)
anyways, it feels strange>.<
like next year, i would be a year 5..
hmm, have always been looking forward to it..
but ever since i turned yr 4, i have only been dreading it.=.=
dunno leh>.<
it seems so scary..
i dun wanna part with my friends:(
okie, i know i sound childish, but its true!!:(
and 2 years sounds bit short.T.T
sobs, scary scary.
hais...

2011-10-22T22:54:00.003+08:00

hais

okie, here is it>.<

my overall Y4 Grades

LA-C

Math1-A

Math2-B

Chinese-B

Biology-B

Chemistry-B

Physics-B

History-B

GPA-2.93

omg:(

sad.

but well, since 已经成定局了..

theres nothing i can do.

But like seriously, i didnt think i did not put in enough effort you know.

i studied like some...i dunno what=.=

hais, just have to see what went wrong ba...>.<

i dunno what to feel now, like so hopeless in everything liddat

theres so much to improve on and i dunno where to start from..

but its like what, 2 years left? T.T

i was looking through other people's blog and everybody seems to do relatively well..

hmmm>.<

but i wont give up!

yeah, will try even harder next year cos i believe my efforts will pay off!!:D

i hope>.<

2011-10-18T20:24:00.004+08:00

Got back my results today

Math 1-64/100

Math 2-55/100

Biology-66/100

Physics-67/100

=.=

im sad bout my results:(

the thing is that i really put in alot of effort!

but i dunno why, it just doesnt pay off:(

what a sad day.

but well, i thought through it and all..

i really really wanna get good grades...

everybody is like telling me my studying method is wrong.. but i really dunno how to change it

so i have decided to just google studying methods=.=

since i cant change anything now, i shall just start doing preparations for my senior high years

i will work harder and smarter..

i will make sure i dun disappoint anybody else again.

and i hope this will be my last time saying things like this:(

"too bad, life sucks, deal with it"

2011-10-08T08:55:00.003+08:00

hais.

i screwed my EOYS up...:(

especially Physics=.=

dun even know what im doing...

guess now i have to put alot alot alot of effort in my chem...>.<

so hopeless lor.

but i will try harder:)

4 more days to the end of EOYS!

大家加油！

it just sucks when things dont go the way you want it to be:(

2011-10-02T15:36:00.004+08:00

I dun hate exams
but i dislike the fact that exams make everyone so different
it feels different to be in school now, where everyone is like comparing...
Exams make everyone so selfish and all..
it feels kinda stressed up in that kind of environment
Im not saying i dun compare, i do too.
i get seriously tensed up bout exams and all, it makes me a weird person:(
i know its "normal", but i just dun like it:(
but nonetheless, im going back to my revision nowT.T
i wan everything to end(:
k then, JIAYOUS TO ALL!!!! :D

2011-09-17T23:33:00.001+08:00

Wheeeeee!
i was so not productive today=.=
i mean, i wasnt distracted you know...
but after sitting on my desk for close to 5 hours, i only finish doing like 5 chapters on bio on my assessment book=.=
and its the first five somemore...
should be relatively easy...
ARHHHHHHHHHH. emos.
then now have to do chem past year paper le T.T
mrs phua gonna go through...
i really hope can finish by today:(
but ah.. today still need to break pointe shoe to soft pointeT.T
but tomorrow ordering new pointe shoe~^^~
heehee~^^~
thats not the point though...
the pointe is that tommorrow is for physics!:(
i never study physics at all lorrrr
thanks to the other 2 sciences...
so i better not forget what i learnt>.<
stress stress stress!>.<
okie, maybe not. LOL!
abit larr...
more of it comes from the fact that i need a 3.2 and im far from it.=.=
i mean who in the world needs to get 100/100 for chem EOY just to get a 80% for the overall...
me.
HAIS.
and my PHYSICS leh....
i wan take physics in SH de....T.T
now like bit impossible...
hais nvm nvm
i shall just try my best:)
JIAYOUS EVERYONE!!!!!!

2011-09-12T00:50:00.001+08:00

Today was the slackest day ever..

i only read through 3 chapters of Chem...>.<

hais.

ah well...

休息是为了走更长的路...>.<

We didnt go to sakura in the end...

but we went to Sushi Teh:D

erm, i ordered alot.

i overestimated my appetite=.=

then got alot of left overs>.<

and i really think i lack the FT ISLAND and MISS A factor these days...

hais T.T

i shall control myself and study hard firstT.T

oh yeah, and i wish my daddy will stop eating all my chocolates and MOONCAKES in the fridge.

UPSETS! HMPH!

and MOMMY LEFT FOR MALAYSIA!!!! T.T

for two days only la..

but im still sad:(

舍不得...

hais.. okie... school reopens tomorrow..

the most exciting..:(

I mean, i used to be excited bout school k!

Just that with the exams around the corner...

school is a depressing place.

kays then, i shall go sleep now...:)

GOOD NIGHHTTTTT!!!

im the happiest person on earth. thank you:)

2011-09-11T15:53:00.002+08:00

YAY!!
im posting with my new lappy~^^~
okie, well, not exactly new... but yuups!!
IM HAPPY!!!
and i have successfully downloaded microsoft office and PPS~^^~
although it took me from the morning till now...
but well..
IM STILL HAPPY!
it feels great~~
and hais, i totally feel like slacking..
:(
which is really really bad...:(
but Eileen and Amber says they are treating me to Sakura buffet later!!!! :D
its my late birthday gift:D
FOOOOODDDDD!!
hmmm.. it isnt exactly a good thing..
as in i will have to sacrifice alot of time off studying to go out...
but still.. i wan eatT.T
hais.
我自相矛盾。。。
i think i have been quite slack for the past few days.
:((((((
hais...:(
i shall go do my homework now...:(

2011-09-06T19:30:00.002+08:00

although this might be a little late,
but I still want to say
THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH :)
I didnt know my 16th birthday would be so special.
Thank You for planning it, keeping it from me and turning up.
It made me feel really loved and Im glad to have friends like you all.
really really!! T.T..
Thank you... :D
Im so happy and thankful that I dun really know what to say..
I mean, I never expected it to happen on me,
I never thought I was worth the effort >.<
Thank you for showing me how much I meant to you all..:)
It was really memorable and I will never forget that day:)
i really dunno what to say actually...
i mean, IM STILL SURPRISED. LOL!
and still very very very very very happy and touched..:)
like i mean, even though its the exam period, you all still planned it and came over to make that day really awesome for me.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i dun wanna write anymore, i may start crying. Lol!
but its really hard to express everything in words, its like
非笔墨能形容。
Just wanna say that, Friends like you all are hard to find. Thank You for being so special :)

2011-08-27T21:30:00.001+08:00

MY PIZZA IS ON ITS WAY!!!
PIZZA!!
PIZZA!!
:D

2011-08-27T16:29:00.003+08:00

EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT! :D

*motivated by yiksheng's handwriting* LOL!

2011-08-23T20:15:00.002+08:00

大家总是说，“这不可能，那不可能。”
但我相信只要意志力够坚强的话，什么事都是有可能的。
这几天，我心灵受到了许多创伤。
但那不是为了任何人或任何事，只是因为一些从四方传来的“金玉良言”
它们的确非常有道理。大家都这么认为。
我也相信它们对我非常有益。特别是给我这种超级迟钝又没脑的人。
但我也有自己的原则，自己的信仰。
我不相信在世上的全部事都有对和错，或是应该做或不应该做。
我相信，当你把自己想要做的事情做到最好，凭着良心地拼搏时，事情自然而然会成功。
虽然这么说，但我还是怕。
他们说不可能的原因一定是因为有经验过某种事情。
但我又放不下我的原则。所以我怕。
怕结果出来会非常令人失望。我真的真的非常害怕。
我知道我讲了半天，应该没有人会理解我到底在说什么。。
哈哈。
总之，我只是想说。。。
我一定会成功。什么东西都行，只要我多费点心思，我一定会成功。一定会。
而现在呢？
我要努力读书，考到好成绩之后，在随心所欲。
:)
doesnt matter if nobody understands this post..:)
i just wrote anything that came to my mind..:D

2011-08-21T13:21:00.002+08:00

struggles.

Something's missing.

2011-08-21T11:49:00.004+08:00

my earrings are irritating.
one dropped in the toilet
then two days later when i found it, i put them back.
and realised that the other side is missing.=.=
its time for a change. calm down looihan.

2011-08-20T20:13:00.002+08:00

If you knew it hurts to hear
you wouldnt have said anything, even if they were true.

2011-08-19T21:15:00.002+08:00

i want it to last.
i really want it to last.
after so long...
am i the only one trying this hard..?
am i the only one crying this badly..?
it hurts. it really does.

2011-08-19T00:18:00.001+08:00

hurt.

2011-08-18T23:55:00.001+08:00

i feel so screwed.
damn screwed.
i dunno what to say...
just keep crying and crying..when everything just starts crashing on me.

2011-08-01T21:41:00.002+08:00

this week will be so screwed T.T
hais
needa prac for dizi kaoji this SATURDAY!
still need to study for the CTS
plus ace project and probably BP too=.=
and all the hmk.
i can just kill myself.
hais.
not enough time to do anything!
i cant even watch "love keeps going" now cos must chiong work=.=
but im glad my self control got better:D
BUT STILLLL.
I HATE THIS WEEK!
T.T
hais.
i just rmb...
im one of the lucky few whose parents must be called to be updated on their child's progress in their work through this time's CTS.
this is badT.T
someone just tell me im dreamingT.T
and oh great.
plus this few days like everyday also dizzy.
dunno why.
IM OFFICIALLY SO SO SO SO SO STRESSED UP! >.<

Miss A-Good bye Baby

2011-07-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

WHEEEE!!! :D LOVE THIS~~~
MISS A!!!!!:D
okie, im still loyal to FT Island kays:)

anyways, CO was great today~:)
and zheng lao shi kept saying he will die he will die..T.T
touchwood manz:(
anyways, the feel was great! :D
i mean, the songs werent THAT good.. but the feeling of being back in Dazu rocks:)
so 感动...
then today i decided that when Jia Yu leaves DHS, im gonna get him a fan.
so that he can fan himself during Dazu!
he's perspiring so much!!!
melvin says jiayu 是在用命来吹！！
i've always been witnessing jiayu's sweat flying around when he moves his head0.0
its kinda cool:D
like, super dedicated to co!!
:D
okie then, shall go stretch for ballet now~^^~

2011-07-22T21:58:00.001+08:00

everything is over already...
thank you...:)
and
im sorry..:(

2011-07-22T00:16:00.002+08:00

I went from lonely to being upset
upset into being sorry
sorry into being angry
angry into being depressed
depressed into being stressed up
stressed into feeling weird
weird into being even weirder
even weirder into very apologetic
very apologetic into feeling so tight up
tight up into feeling so shit
feeling so shit into feeling darn emo
feeling darn emo into a stage where i cant even recover properly
and that into numbness
numbness into lots of crying
and after crying, i became stronger than when i was lonely.
i wan this to stop so i myself have to stop feeling so negative.
looihan, you can do it.
it will heal, even though it may leave a scar.
but everything will be alright.

2011-07-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

Today was fun and happy!
high~:D
Dinner at Just acia was not bad:D
though my meal was like THE WORST.
i ordered SPICY CHEESE RAMEN.
YEAH. NEVER. ORDER. THAT.
it sucksT.T
so erm, i swallowed everything without tasting it..HAIS
faints.
had to drink alot of lemonade after that=.=
seriously.
then we played around..:) take pictures~:D
then went for the ceromony.
hmm.. its actually quite high~
but the fireworks were far far awayT.T
but it was sweet on the overall~:)
went for icecream at macs after that
we talked and talked
tilllll dear chin found an entertainment.
which is...
我的妈妈叫我叫你叫你的妈妈打给我妈妈
which then evolved to...
my mama ask me to ask you to ask you mama to call my mama
which then evolved to...
...grandma...grandpa... i didnt quite catch the last part>.<
hahahahahahahaha
try saying them fast:D
i dunno if i got the sequence right..
but its damn cool~
chin can like BLAHHHHHHHHHH and over.
then we are like stuck here stuck there.
hahah

2011-07-15T23:24:00.001+08:00

我要振作。

2011-07-15T17:15:00.003+08:00

下雨了~
看着窗外密密麻麻的雨点。。。
心情终于平静下来了。
我好像又看到了属于我的彩虹。
我总是在问自己
为什么要看到彩虹还需经过这场雨呢？
彩虹就不能永远存在吗？
但我发现了一件事，就是因为彩虹会这么躲躲藏藏的，人们才会更喜欢它。
因为它代表着美满的结局。
虽然不是时时刻刻都在，但一出现，它就有能力把每个人的心事带走。
虽然总是隐隐约约的，但却有着无穷的力量。
无论如何，我都是幸福的。
因为彩虹会在我最需要的时刻出现。
虽然有时必要经过狂风大雨，但只要事情结束了，我就会更珍惜只属于我的彩虹。
这才会让我坚信着，彩虹永远永远都会陪伴着我走出我最阴暗的时刻
所以这全部都是值得的。:)
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school was little tiring today...>.<
but well, i believe everything will be alright:)
oh and YAY!!!! my hair is growing longer!!:D
very slowly though:(
and dunno whats wrong...
my tagboard is forever spammed with erm.. random bloghoppers:D
not like i dun like, but i really dun understand alot of things written there.
hmm.
hahahaha:D

2011-07-14T21:01:00.002+08:00

im drinking honeysuckle now~^^~
muahahahaha.:D
niceeee!:)
but thats not the point.
the point is tomorrow got chinese ct.
dunno why but i feel quite stressed up=.=
团体-团体的公函 requires so little stuff..
so little that it makes me feel unsafeT.T
i wan to get an A for CHINESE!!
hmmm...from C to A..T.T
aiya..i dunno lar...
im failing everything under Mr Kiw...D:
hais.
hopes everything goes right tomorrow!!>.<
oh. that reminds, i haven finish chem prac..=.=
我好累>.< for some reason.
(looks at the mirror)你可以的！
(credits to Mr Han:)

2011-07-13T21:28:00.003+08:00

i screwed my physics test
shucks shucks shucks.
hais
CARELESS and NO TIME MANAGEMENT!
i can just bang myself on the wall...
T.T
hais.
must do better for the rest!
*determined!

2011-06-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

我真得很想念你。
一定一定会永远记得你的。

2011-05-26T20:01:00.001+08:00

lol.
i guess result is everything.
o.0

2011-05-20T19:23:00.002+08:00

ah...
TOMORROW IS THE DAY :D
muahahahhaha~
anyways, the three boring school days are finally over.
REJOICE!
good job waikhei dar, ivory and ME!
wah..next week electives>.<
no like.
and the report book day is coming. omg.
just kill me=.=
hais...shall go watch my dramas now:)

2011-05-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

me, myself and i

2011-05-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

i guess that its good to have fringe covering up your eyes sometimes.
so people wont know you are crying.

just let me disappear and never come back

2011-05-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

IM STRESSED ENOUGH
why cant you just understand and encourage me to improve rather than just keep on scolding me?:(
im sads.
maybe im undergoing the 叛逆时期

2011-04-28T15:19:00.002+08:00

i found this interesting on the webby:)

"Life is so ironic to understand fully, it takes sadness to know what is happiness. noise to distinguish silent and a broken heart to find true love."

anyways, today was fine.
figured out that my gpa is a goner.
omg.
praying hard for a miracle.
as in even if i say
"i promise i will do better at the end of the year"
the report book will still come back with some horrible score and my mum wont even bother if i say i'll do better.
shucks:(
this is bad.

2011-04-25T22:16:00.002+08:00

hais.
I FAILING EVERY SINGLE TEST! T.T
die le...
SA~~
as in i know it isnt THAT important...
but then, i dun dare to bring back anything below 3.4 for my mum T.T
so omg.
i need a miracle.
JIAYOUS PEOPLE!!!!!
觉悟了。
希望不会太晚。:(

2011-04-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

MY LIFE IS GREATTTTTTT!
^^
AWESOMEEEEEEEEE!
COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEST!!!!!!!!!!
^^
cos i got the bestest kinds of people looking after me, caring for me and being part of my life
i got the best mom and dad...最温暖的家。
when i went to primary school, i got the best of everything.
my dad gave me my first ever coloured phone in p4
first nintendo(?) in p3..? i cant really remember
then it went on to ps1
then ps2.
it stopped there cos i didnt play it anyway.
lol!
got a luo han fish who stayed with me throughout...
till he died of old age T.T
went to many countries....
got awesome cousins and aunties who dote on me like their daughter
ppl who would be even more anxious than me if i actually got in to the school i want
and yes, i got into dunman high.
i was really really happy then.
chose co as my cca and was jumping with joy knowing that no auditions were needed.
had very nice classmates!
had awesome cca teachers:)
great intrument:)
and when i say i wan a samsung soul, i got a samsung soul.
was fortunate to have many people doting on me:)
then went up to yr 3, things started coming in, alot of hmk and cca stress
but it was alright cos i got ppl who loves me so much looking after me, giving me words of advice and making sure that i was alright and not breaking down.
cca then became really bad.
thought of ponning becos it was really tiring,
but looking at the rest working hard, i decided that we should all be in this together.
then scrapped through yr 3 and then to yr 4..
how horrible the hmk load can be
countless of tests started cramming into a week..
it was so much that soon i didnt care if i can do well
i just wanted a pass.
co was even worse.
pratices and practices and blah and blah...
it was horrible.
but gong yan came. then chuguo.
they made me feel that all the hardwork was worth it.
chuguo especially.
we bonded well, played well and awed ppl over there.
tgt, we brought pride and honour back to singapore
then, there came projects and hmk AGAIN.
omg.=.=
like seriously.
it was really tiring.
CO pratices got longer too..
the preparation for syf met with many obstacles
but that, brought us even closer tgt.
we practiced and practiced even harder...
things got really serious..
juggling hmk, test and cca.
you could imagine how everybody felt.
but we got awesome seniors:)
they came back as often as they could helping us with many problems
they made pretty gifts and really spent alot of effort on us.
the teachers begged for a full day off
they all had faith and confidence in us.
they know that we will do well.
on the day of syf, we played our hearts out.
and i was left dazing on stage.
i didnt know what to feel.
i feel as though, it wasnt enough, that wasnt my best.
i was disappointed.
thats what co instilled in me.
永远不满足的精神.
一直往上爬，永不放弃。
i came down from the stage, everybody was in a daze.
we didnt know how it was, we didnt know how we felt.
it was over.
jiayu started crying and smiling..
then clarissa..
beverly..
wendy..
weiting..
and many more.
i was really touched.
we got so many seniors to cheer for us.
they called from overseas.. came all the way down to sch to watch u and cry.
真得让我很尊敬他们。
really cannot expect days in co without them.
i love my seniors.
i really do.
my life is great.
i love DHSCO
i got everyone and everything i yearn for:)
im grateful to anyone who has appeared in my life,
co or not co,
you ppl are great!
whats next will be a stressful period with all the eoy chionging...
JIAYOUS PPL!!!!
we can do it:)

2011-04-12T20:04:00.002+08:00

eeeeks!!!! i hate school!!!! D: D: D: no fun... i have EVERYTHING NOT DONEE!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKS. gosh. T.T

2011-03-30T23:44:00.003+08:00

this is stupid. i never knew you would change so much lol. getting from bad and worse everyday. its like i never knew you at all.

2011-02-23T22:13:00.002+08:00

i should stop being a crybaby.

2011-02-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

i really hate it when i just cut my hair and its superrrrrrrrrrrr shorttt
OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
lol!!!
i really mean SHORT.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKSSSSSSSSSS.
hahah:)
STRESSSSSSS.
oh oh oh CHINGAY IS ENDING SOON!
lol!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
i mean chingay is fun! but bit tiring...>.<
ESPECIALLY THE COSTUME!
oh gosh. I FORGOT WHERE I PUT MY FAKE EYELASHES!!!
ahhhhhhhh, shall go findnow...
BYESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

stressed up like always.

2011-01-11T17:01:00.003+08:00

I almost lost it.
that trust for people.
and thats all thanks to you.
hais.
really, give me a break.
i hate growing up.
----------------------------
OMG SCHOOL JUST STARTED AND IM ALREADY SO STRESSED UP.
gonna have to write a chinese essay tomorrow:(
something about 我的梦.
i got totally no idea whats my 梦。
lol!
should start researching on other people's 梦 later...:)
oh and math is alright:)
LA is just as stressful as ever
biology is getting fun...
physics is the same as ever...:)
chemistry is ALSO THE SAME.
because i still dun get what the teacher is trying to say...
history is also pretty stressful...
mrs tan is fine, but the way she talks makes me so anxious!
lol! i dunno why you know its like, weird.
like on the first lesson she comes in and say "we r doing an essay the next lesson"
haha:)
but she is cuteeeeeeeee!
hahahah^^
hais.
IM AM STILL VERY STRESSED UP!=.=
got chingay and co going on...
everything is like crashing down on me...
BUT ITS ALRIGHTS.
IM GONNA MANAGE IT WELL.
i hope.
okie then i shall go do my history essay prep first:)
BYES!^^

1/1/11

2011-01-01T14:16:00.005+08:00

heyyysss,
2011...
2011...
2011...
2011...
2011...
feels weird:(
although 2010 didnt go too well
and i should be glad its finally over..
but 2011 sounds even worse.
i wanna go back to 1995=.=
like seriously.
okie, i shouldnt be acting like this on the first day of the year..
i guess its the effects of my book..
was reading Hunger Games for the past 5 days or so.
i finished the three books and am feeling very lost.
even though its just a book>.<
but but i like the book:)
no happy ever after ending but still...
it sets people thinking.
ah, okie, since its the new year, i shall write down things i've done wrong in 2010.
1) I didnt put in my all in anything i did. i regretted everything at the last minute.
and knew there was no turning back.
my results.
CO.
attitude.
manners.
there were all screwed up because i didnt bother to try my best.
2) Family matters.
well, although this cant be considered as my fault...
but i hate the way i treated things and only figure out it was wrong after i've done it.
it was stupid.
3) and alot of other things i cant remember.
I dunno why, its like, things change.
2010 was really hard for me.
it was very tedious.
so much that i just dun wanna think so it.
family troubles, all sorts of weird things about growing up, mixed feelings, weird people..
i encountered things that i thought i would never meet in my life.
and 2010 probably was the year i complained the most.
of course there were people helping me through all these.
i feel so..sorry.
they encouraged me with words and actions.
they told me i was great, good enough, awesome, took my side no matter what.
really really, thank you for always being there for me.
im sorry cos there was nothing i can do in return for their kindness and concern.
there r a few seniors too, who cared for me without me noticing.
you all r always there, quietly.
as seniors, u all gave me advices and taught me lots of things.
u all made me smile when i felt the worst.
thank you.
there r my besties, friends or maybe even schoolmates who helped me too.
you people stood by me no matter what.
maybe u arent always there.
but once u r with me, i know for sure that i can rely on u and trust u.
u people add colours to my life.
thank you.
there r also some, who r more special than the rest.
i love and trust u all.
if it wasnt for u people, i would be feeling even worse about 2010 than i am now.
needless to say, u all r the ones i wanna share my life with
cos u make it complete.
thank you.
and finally, my family.
my mom who nags and scolds me for whatever i do but hugs me everytime she finishes
my dad whom i complain about all the time
but still, i believe, loves me more than anyone else in the world.
my cousins who tolerate with my nonsense, pamper me and treat me to meals when i run short of money.
my aunties and uncles who treat me like their own child
my ah ma who repeats for me to be safe even though im already safely locked at home
and lastly, my gua ma who cooks everything i want, and in great quantities.
that would include buying $108 of pork just because we love dumplings.
i live because u live.
thank you.
im sorry.
really really sorry.
that despite of all the love u people shower me with, i still didnt do my best in 2010.
and even spent most of the year feeling confused and worn out.
u all deserve my best but yet it didnt happen.
thats why im sorry.
sorry that i was probably a great disappointment to u all in 2010.
this stupid year.
i've been the greatest fool alive.
im sorry.
i was really horrible
really horrible and stupid
im sorry.
but i will change for the better this year
im sorry if looihan changed in 2010.
she didnt mean it.
really.
forgive me for whichever way u all found me insulting, horrible and childish.
2011 will be a better year.
i will put in my best in everything i do.
i will try not to disappoint anyone.
i will be someone im proud to be so that i dun have to repeat this post with twice the number of apologies in the year 2012.
Lastly, i wan to thank everyone around me who gave me hope and care, understanding and forgiveness, hugs and kisses, trust and confidence and unconditional love.
Happy New Year to all:)
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to mama:)

merry christmas and a happy new year

2010-12-24T22:07:00.002+08:00

HEY!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!
went out with eileen just now....
so full till i wanna burst+.+
and oh, I CUT MY HAIR AGAIN.
so its like. super short. again.
wahh...
ahahha:)
going malaysia, muar to attend relative's wedding tomorrow and sunday...
then to malacca to play with my cousins~
haha:)
oh oh, THANK YOU RUIHAN FOR THE SURPRISE CD GIFT!
i was really happy when i received it.
whee!
and and, u all know sth?
I HAVEN FINISH MY HOMEWORK YET.
oops.
left with some physics and math questions.
quite okie la.
but im not gonna do till i get back>.<
oh well...>.<
kays then, BUH BYE!

2010-12-22T20:08:00.002+08:00

chuida was pretty cool today^^
oh btw, GO LISTEN TO HATEFUL AND GRACEFUL by FT ISLAND!!
*CLAPS*
:)

XIAOMINNIE AND DATE

2010-12-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

WENT OUT WITH XIAO MINNIE TODAY!
shopped at Nex...
wanted kbox...
no spaceT.T
wanted movie...
Too late T.T
so we went all the way to klp..
hahah
watch sammy's adventure!
veh cute!
LOL!
cute turtles~
thought through somethings on the way back...
figured out that i seem to not have a purpose in life...
no achievements
no goals.
hais.
my nov and dec hols were/are practically wasted..
hais.
but i will do better next year.
i promise^^
and oh, blogger is hopeless.
cant upload pictures anymore...
EEEK.
haha:)
thats all for today~
BYES!

is growing up that hard?

2010-12-20T18:54:00.002+08:00

hmm...disappointed.
stressed up.
and oh man, i think i will get 心理病 if i continue to think bout it.
hais.
how i wish i could just disappear.

HONOURS!

2010-12-17T23:12:00.002+08:00

WHEEE!!!
I GOT HONOURS FOR GRADE 6 BALLET!
couldnt believe it0.0
pretty happy bout it!:)
and even though i know i dun deserve it..0.0
hmm, i will do better the next time round^^
just had chingay...:)
and oh yah, i tried countless times to upload pictures here but it failed all the time.
hais, so thats all for today^^

Horrible Pointe

2010-11-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

I TRIED THRICE TO UPLOAD PICTURES BUT BLOGGER JUST COULDNT WORK!
EEEK:(
so yeaps, no pictures:(
i actually wanted to post a picture of my blister!!
cos i didnt wear toe pad for pointe during ballet today.
wanted to see which toe will get hurt so that i know which toe to wrap the next time.
i regretted that decision the moment i took off my shoe=.=
blisters on the big toe, 4th toe and the last.
bathing couldnt get any harder.
and oh yeahhhh, teacher said i got NO ANKLE!T.T
which is very very very bad.
doing pointe work would be alot harder for those without ankle.
:(
so i must work everyday and force my ankle out.
oh, not to mention, stretch everyday too.
the grade 6 examiner said it would be hard for us to stretch anymore now
cos its like, our bones have harden...
so it will be harder and more painful while stretching...:(
hais...
but i will try my best^^
Dizi exam was no good... got 126.
but at least its a merit.
haha:)
im sorry i disappointed zheng lao shi:(
had latin today.
saw VIVIANNE!
WHEEEEEEEE!!!
^^
happpppppys~
hahah:) i dunno why though, just feel happy when i saw her in our class!
vivianne is NICE!
hahaha:)
simone went through chachacha basics....
more tiring than i thought.
I THOUGHT WE WOULD DO JIVE T.T
but well... chacha is fun too!^^
im trying to read the newspapers everyday now too...
LOOIHAN WANS TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!^^
hahaha:)
tomorrow will be a really really relaxing day cos i got nothing on~
feel like asking mommy to bring me out!!^^
hahaha:)
next week will be JIXUN!!!!
hahah:)
okie la, thats it for today:)
BUHBYES!!!!

2010-11-24T15:59:00.002+08:00

heyyy
I CUT MY HAIR
its super duper short.
very very short
like omg. damn short.
LOL!
looks bit weird to me now:(
Depressed....
anyways, i screwed up ballet exam...
latin competition was alright for a first timer like meeee
next will be dizi exam this friday
im gonna screw it up. completely.
hais, lack of practiceeeeeee!
after that will be jixun...
and GRANDMA'S BDAY!!
YAY!!!
Im looking forward to the foooood!
hais....haven really started on my homework>.<
kays then BUH BYE!

Thank You

2010-10-26T22:32:00.002+08:00

not so horrible november

2010-10-24T11:34:00.002+08:00

hey...
told mommy bout my GPA yesterday...
got scolded again T.T
i haven even told her that i need $800 from her for my dance and dizi exam=.=
hais...
anyways, ballet was great yesterday:)
hmm, zheng lao shi told me bout shangyin exam yesterday...
so my schedule is like..
15/11-Ballet exam
21/11-Latin Competition
25/11-ShangYin exam
Chingay is starting in november too...
twice a week.
CO will be like super hiong too.
but well, MY DETECTIVE CONAN 69 IS COMING OUT IN NOVEMBER TOO^^
hais.
im not feeling well now...
so yeah, shall go and sleep.
:)
BYES!

EOY results

2010-10-22T20:07:00.002+08:00

heyyyy
all my results are out already.
and wow.
i screwed all of them T.T
LA- 60.95%
Math 1-63.75%
Math 2-70%
Chinese-66.5%
Physics-61.43%
Chemistry-52%
Biology-64%
History-42%(yes i failed=.=)
Worst overall GPA- 2.8
Best overall GPA- 3.07
=.=
hais....
mama will murder me
definitely.
T.T
haisssssssss
i regret slacking this year!!
T.T
i wan cry...
T.T
hais...
hoping for a miracle

im so screwed..T.T

2010-10-07T20:08:00.002+08:00

screwed my la...=.=
i cant believe it.
omg, and i studied so hard for it=.=
when will i ever learn to READ THE QUESTION PROPERLY?!
gosh....
hais, chinese tomorrow~
IM SO GETTING 95/100

Tomorrow, the Start of the End.

2010-10-06T20:59:00.003+08:00

Language Arts is tomorrow~ :)

lesson learnt:)

2010-09-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

hmmm, many things happened lately
so i think i will still post even if EOYs arent over yet.
-----------------------------------------------------
i really learned alot from this few days...
i got so emotional over some things that i lost the mood to study.
gosh, i find myself very dumb=.=
i shouldnt let any of those things affect me at this period of the year.
but nvm, this things that happened taught me many things..
and i sort of grew up after the 2 horrible days.
well..actually maybe it wasnt THAT horrible...
cos there are awesome people out there who stays by my side through thick and thin
thank you:)
but still, the last two days werent exactly nice...
they made me feel awfully useless and stupid.
i pondered over many things...
reflect and cry.
so now i feel much better^^
i tried taking actions to solve them but all was in vain.
i gave myself a chance and chose to believe what was nice
but the thing came back to me was always disappointment
i got so tired of all these that i gave up thinking.
i dun even wanna care now.
like seriously, why did i even bother.
BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT
i am glad that all those happened,
it made me realise that many people out there cares.
even if 1 didnt, the other 10 cares.
even if 100 didnt, the other 1000 will always be by me.
it made me realise how much i was loved by people
it made me feel really fortunate and lucky
they care about me even more than i care about myself.
i really really love you all:)
if not for you people, i think i will still be in self denial or in some emo state.
so yupps, THANK YOU! ^^
even though i cant promise you all that i can be like normal tomorrow
but i will try:)
----------------------------------------------------------------
just had ballet and confirmed that my grade 6 exams will be on the 15 November.
Latin competition will be on the 21 November
and OH YEAHHHHHHH
I GOT MY LATIN SKIRTTTT!
^^
hahaha
kays then, i shall go pack for tomorrow~:)

where is my motivation to study?!

2010-09-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

EOYs are coming!! >.<
怕怕。。。 >.<
hais... i really wanna do well this time.
really really
but im seriously not putting in enough effort to mug. :(
hais.
but im not in the mood for anything today.
came back home late and everything
dun feel like studying at all.
was forcing myself to do abit of bio..
finished movement of substance and now stuck at cells.
hais.
wonder when i will ever move on to chem,
which is like an even worse subject for me:(
have not revised LA too.. T.T
Math is a stupid subject. LOL!
people are telling me that this year isnt important...
ya know, as long as i can get promoted?
yeah. very true.
but i dunno why i just have the urge to work harder this year.
there are some things i need to achieve..
mommy wants me to get a scholarship.
not like i can do anything now...
im just a year 3, yes i know.
but its always good to start preparing now... i guess?
its like, i want it.
but i wont do anything to reach it.
gosh, i sound so stupid=.=
haissssssss
looihan needs to be motivated!
haha:)
oh yeah, i was kinda stressed up yesterday and my cousin woke up telling me i sleeptalk
LOL!
apparently, i was doing math, if not then, chem mole concept or physics.
cos all i said were numbers...
like erm, "67 87..."
i even ended my talk with "i want to sleep"
LOL!
hais... actually i hope that this three weeks are study breaks instead...
its like, i need TIME to mug.
going school, coming back, doing homework, chionging projects(TONS AN TONS OF THEM)
i think all these are like, wasting time...(pardon me)
especially the projects.
i mean, they are supposed to be fun ya know!
but i cant feel a thing with EOYs in like what? 3 weeks?
wow.
hmmm, guess this will be the last time i will be posting before the EOYs..
oh and lastly,
JIAYOUS TO EVERYONE MUGGING AS WELL!!^^

2010-09-11T22:59:00.001+08:00

hey allllll
please take care of yourselves k?
im getting horribly sick this holiday
drink more water and whatever:)
byes~

The Day to Change for the Better:)

2010-09-02T17:53:00.003+08:00

HELLO!
before i go on to revise my LA, i would like to thank everyone who wished me for making today such a happy day!^^
I love love love love love
the awesome gifts and sweet cards^^
i will also like to wish my dear twinny SIOWYING a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
haha:)
goshhhhhh, me 15 le.
yuxin wrote in my card to tell me to be more mature.
LOL!
I AM ALREADY VERY MATURE!
dont you agree?^^
hmmmm.....
15 le...
im a year older already.
i really need to learn to be more 懂事 and learn to take better care of myself:)
haha:)
kayys then, i shall go revise LA now!
JIAYOUS PEOPLE FOR MACBETH TEXT BASED TOMORROW!

39 days to EOYS

2010-08-28T21:30:00.001+08:00

i seriously need some motivation to study. =.=

2010-08-28T20:12:00.002+08:00

MPP is over T.T
hais....
but nvm, it was a great experience:)
today's latin was taught by a different teacher...
i miss mario >.<
i prefer his teachings!
oh yeah, i found out that im getting closer and closer with ruihan and shan shan!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
latin shall be even more fun from now onwards!^^
anyways, i got lots of homework not done...
EEK.
:(

a typical saturday for looihan.

2010-08-21T23:34:00.003+08:00

goshhhh
the day is finally coming to an end.
went to school for mock debates with the awesome year 2s from 2D:)
realised that i talk really soft...?
actually, no leh!
i dun!
but i dunno why people say i have to speak up..
i thought i was already very loud. 0.0
Mrs Ang treated us to lunch(THANK YOU!)
oh and, LOVE MINGLI!
mingli is superrrrrr cute!
^^
we were glued on to the dance competition held outside suntec and saw really freaking dancers.
i mean, they are liek super funny!
but there was this guy that looked like he was from japan...?
yeah, he is good.
superb!!
^^
took circle line to bugis for dance.
and Ruihan showed me her steps for her competition!^^
latin was fun fun fun fun fun fun like always~
stayed back for a while to watch the advance class dance rumba~
nice!
^^
went for ballet early to start stretching...
felt that my legs were stronger today
a least my steps were neat:)
wen ching tried tying a bun for me and she failed.
hahha:)
teacher did stretchings today.
it was like. ouch.
I was holding on to leticia like some koala...
hahah:)
i mean, its hurts ya know >.<
but well, stretchings are suppose to hurt.
i think i better start doing stretchings everyday to get myself flexible...
im too stiff as a dancer=.=
came back home with wobbly legs
and OHHHHH,
MOMMY BOUGHT NEW SHOWER!
you know the spray thingy!
hahah:)
coooooool!
now, im like glued on to my seat...
no energy to walk or stand.
haha:)
thats all for today then.
hoping that tomorrow's class will be even better:)
im waiting.

i miss it there in Europe when there was nothing to worry about.

2010-08-21T00:00:00.003+08:00

was just looking through the photos taken in Europe last year
and realized how much i've missed it.

an awesome rainy day!

2010-08-20T20:21:00.003+08:00

today was alright
the weather was awesome but the rain came bit too early...>.<
Chinese was still the same
yuhao says its free period all the time
i kinda agree ya know...
i mean i was eating chocs in chinese lesson like im eating popcorns.
hmmm, how should i say it.
i kept throwing chocs ito my mouth non-stop
yeah, teacher saw but well, i guess he didnt mind>< (im sorry)
but i was listening!
haha:)
it was funny when teacher says “好，现在我们来考听写。”
we looked at the clock(time was up)
then casimir shouted "可惜啊！”
LOL!
the rest of the lessons were fine...
compre wasnt exactly good.
got back physics... 22/40.
i wasnt VERY disppointed considering that i didnt finish all the calculations in the paper.
but still, 22 is horrible:(
got lots of homework this weekend...
and mppdebate not done
extended ballet lessons twice in the weekends...
i wonder if i can finish anything=.=
you know, i love ballet.
but in this few weeks, i always had the thought of dropping it.
maybe its cause grade6 exams are coming and apparently im not prepared.
thats why ballet is more stressful then enjoyable now
like, it has became a need to go for lessons and not a want.
i know i shouldnt be thinking this way but i just cant help it.
i hate myself for thinking that i wanna drop dance.
its just not right...:(
or maybe its cos of latin.
frankly saying, im coming to enjoy latin much more than ballet..
hais...
but i dun wan it this way.
i want ballet as my top priority.
:(
i really really want to get over with grade 6 and go on with sub ele fast!!
grade 6 is just... too long.
and oh yeah, was trying to do a teacher's day card for mr siva just now..
but the card failed...D:
haha:)
oh, yesterday chin hui and i were talking
and the convo was like this
me:chinny, i think you veh ego eh.
ch: huh?
me: really veh ego
ch: no what!
me: no like seriously, you are crazy and ego
ch: no! IM HUMBLE!
LOL!
chinny so cute rights?^^
haha, okie then, i shall go do my mpp cue cards now~
byes people!
wish me luck that i wont fall asleep on the table~

MPP Rocks!

2010-08-18T21:45:00.004+08:00

heyheyheyyy~
had an amazing day today.
okie, maybe not THAT amazing.
haha:)
i changed my ambition again
i want to study in the NUS Law Faculty!
WOOOOOTS!
its superrrrr cool
like seriously~
we went to find XinYing and Gerry at the Law Faculty today for help
the taxi trip which zhen wen sponsored(thank you^^) was horrendous.
cause weelllll, nobody in the taxi knew that NUS had two campuses(or even more)
so we went to clementi main campus.
and oh btw, we sqeezed on one taxi to help zhen wen save money.(5people)
yeah, so we had to turn all the way back to the law faculty at bukit timah
i was feeling all so dizzy in the taxi=.=
yeah anyways, we reached there...had our dinner as well
and found out that the people working there rocks.
LOL!
hahaha
randomness!
hahah^^
then went to the second floor...AIRCON!
hahah:)
its superrrr cool
its like airconditioned.
but theres a glass door
you open and you see an empty space with benches
a few steps down and you see a big big field
oposite the field is some historical building.
soooo cooooooooooool
we did our discussion at the comfy sofa
and really really, XinYing and Gerry amazes me all the time
i mean,
XinYing is like a bullet train.
she can just go on and on speaking and speaking about all the MAIN points
its like so fast that i couldnt have enough time to write it down...
hahah
and Gerry will alwasy be there and contribute to the humour without fail
He is a super nice teddy bear mentor
their friends came by to see what we were doing
and gave awesome remarks like "you can just say that their bill is against the law"
LOL!
so cool rightttt?^^
its like we are doing a opposing debate on the NUS High's bill.
gna be absent the whole friday next week doing the debate:)
hope that it'll go well^^
we dun wanna let the student mentors down.
^^
okie then, i shall go do a transcript on the recordings i took~
BYES!

2010-08-13T22:03:00.005+08:00

school was fine and all...
really tired now...
it wasnt a good day today.
i dont deserve it.

2010-08-12T16:29:00.002+08:00

thursday was rly shorttttt as usual^^
had mpp meet up in the morning
got back bio test..
i failed.
hais.
T.T
then went for bsp alone.
came back home alone.
how....peaceful^^
now im munching on to my doritos...
feeling stone.
LOL
i wonder what i should do now.
but hais... there is alot of things for me to do..
but i dun feel like doing T.T
okie fine.. i shall go watch my drama then back to homework!

LITTLE DANIEL!

2010-08-11T23:31:00.002+08:00

im bored
so i shall post a series of little daniel in action!^^
so cute right?
*nods*
i know.

a fresh start?

2010-08-11T18:19:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
my tagboard, my links and EVERYTHING all gone T.T
cos i pressed a wrong button
now it ends up like this.
=.=
but nvm, i quite like it this way^^
haha:)
so hmmmm......
today was finee~
just bit hotter and more stuffy than usual=.=
soccer was fine...
math test was alright...
and it RAINED!
hahah:)
but still stuffy:(
got back my chinese test
33/50.
T.T
IM BECOMING WORSE AND WORSE!
haiss....
i shall do better!
oh oh oh ohhhh
mr tay said i didnt fail physics ct
but he says it isnt exactly well done too...T.T
and oh yeahhhhhhhhhh
i wanna say that
IM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF!
cos why?
i finished all my homework on monday!
WOW!
so yeah, im pretty free now^^
but there is still MPP to do...
got in the opposing debates:(
me scaredd...
i hope we do well..
haha:)
ah, thats all for today then~
byesssssssss!

Happy national day!

2010-08-09T10:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
Isnt it so exciting?^^
like seriously:)
i love love love love love love national days~
not for the holidays k :x
gosh, gotta start with my homework today...:(
woke up at 845 today thinking it was 11...=.=
haha:)
but it feels kinda great being up early:)
then little daniel came over to play~

im gonna work hard.
i know thi is random but
yeah, seriously, i neeed to workkkk harderrr
gonna start revising for my eoys.
got reminded by xueting that eoys is like 50+ days later...
i promised mama to get a 3.7...waah...
hahha:)
i will do it~
YAY~!
hahaha:)
so i shall be a good girl and start on my homework now~
BYES!
take things easy.

2010-08-07T23:59:00.002+08:00

gosh...dance was tough
but well, pretty fun^^
i went down on split again
and CRACKED again!
=.=
haisssssss
painsssssss.
and
tired.
:0

2010-08-04T16:50:00.001+08:00

physics test was horrible.
i need to work harder.

2010-07-28T21:55:00.002+08:00

I FEEL DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN STRESSED UP!!!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEK!
STUPID BIO!
why isnt anything going in!!
there is so many things i dont know!!!
BSP!!!!
haven start! tomorrow no time! tomorrow last day!!!
MPP DHRP!!!
EEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKK!
HOMEWORK!!!!
noooooooooo timeeeeee!!
ACE ESSAY!!!
no timeeeeeeeeeee!
but due on monday!
only got a few hours on sunday to do everything!
EEEK!
CHEM TEST NEXT TUES!
no time study!!!
ARGHHHHHH
PHYSICS TEST NEXT WEDS!
no time study!!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
shuckkkkkkkkkkksssss
i feel as if im breaking down soon...
but this is just the start of everything.=.=
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!
AND WHY AM I STILL WASTING TIME!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2010-07-27T18:09:00.001+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEE
MY COUSINS SAMUEL AND IAN CAME BACK!!!!
WOOOOTS^^
and oh no
im not mugging!!!
i should be mugging!!! T.T
but im watching summer's desire....
oh mannnnnnnnnn
haisss.
oh shucks. i just remembered=.=
i got lots to do for LA=.=
hais
byes then~

THANK YOU CHINNY!

2010-07-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

today was WINDY!!!
OMG!
its like damn cooling and awesome!!
anyways
THANK YOU CHINNY!!!
for accompanying me to take IC picture then to my house.
im glad you returned home safely :D
hahaha:)
okies then me shall go revise bio le
BYES!^^
i wonder if this kinda thing fades away.

if time could rewind...

2010-07-25T15:21:00.002+08:00

feeling bored all of a sudden so i've to post.
woke up at 1045 today
aching all over, probably due to yesterday's crazy stretchings in ballet
hahah:)
and well, felt hardworking and started studying (thanks to zhangxin:)
completed most of my math and physics
and went for breakfast
my favourite stall didnt sell my favourite food T.T
came back and started reading through chem...
but i still dun understand=.=
gna die for tomorrow's pop quiz:(
haven studied for bio:(
haven studied for Math:(
haven done my ace essay
LA homework untouched.
ms soh gives alot of homework T.T
hais... couldnt do a thing yesterday cos my saturdays are always fully packed.
friday was back too late and fell asleep early.
so....whats left is today.
gotta go for ballet at 615pm later and would probably reach home at 1030pm.
so that means, lesser time to revise and study for tests
and lesser time to do homework.
and im still slacking here ><
feeling stressed up all of a sudden
things arent going the way they should be (as usual=.=)
sometimes, i just wanna let everything go
and fly off somewhere else.
i wanna go back to the days i spent in europe,
the times with all my cousins,
the first few days of school when i thought everything was still so fresh and wonderful,
Granny's birthday celebration last year,
CO malaysia trip last year,
......................
worries and burdens are building up.
things are changing.
why couldnt time just rewind?
hais. i think i just need time to accept whatever there is to accept
and to change for the better.
its time to grow up :(

2010-07-24T23:29:00.002+08:00

Dance was WOOOOOOOOOSH today^^
and i feel like my body is gna break into pieces anytime
hahaha
thats alll~
BYES

2010-07-22T20:07:00.002+08:00

finally got my com and the internet back!
rejoice ppl!
^^
haha:)
and goshhhhhhh, theres tons of hmk today=.=
HAIS.
i think i failed my math pop quiz today.
oh and chinny came to my house^^
and she did alot of hmk la!
like...erm, 4 or 3 ?
i was just starting on my second when she finished.
so pro right!!
hahaha:)
ah, thats all. me gonna chiong my la essay now~
things arent going the way it should be.
but what to do.
i feel helpless.

ballet under the stars 2010!

2010-07-19T18:36:00.005+08:00

BALLET UNDER THE STARS 2010 WITH KHEI KHEI DAR AND MEIYOU YESTERDAY! ^^
fun fun fun fun fun THOUGH IT WAS RAINING=.=
horrible weather T.T
hmmm, we had three packets of chips, green tea and sushi for dinner...
not a bad experience...
i mean, when is it that you could actually have the chance to cit on wet muddy grass, under the rain and have sushi?^^
the dances were really good!
i love Don Quixote pas de deux!
its cooooool!!^^
i love this dancer named Chihiro Uchida.
i think thats her name0.0
hahaa:)
she is super firm!
like, i mean, when on stage her movements were strong and yet beautiful and graceful:)
we went at 5pm to be under the rain
and it ended at 10 plus
hahaha:)
really had an awesomeeeeee time with dar and meiyou^^
dar got a pointe keychain.
mei you and i really really really really want it ya know...
but we are short of cashT.T
and a $8 keychain is really out of my budget.
me really wantttt itttt...T.T
hais, nvm. i shall get mommy to buy it for me the next time i see it:)
anyways, IM SO GOING FOR NEXT YR'S ONE!^^
today was short!
la plot quiz was a total failure.
math was a laughing disaster(thanks to chinny:)
chinese was as usual...short and slack.
watched the racial harmony performance after that.
so cool^^
but left early for mpp~
went to watch the 11th parliament's second session.
its kinda cool.
seeing mps that look really familiar
and OH OH OH I LIKE GEORGE YEO!
i think thats his name o.0
i hope i got it right.........
he is damn coool!!!
like cause he was reading the second readings for the Smoking (control of advertisements and sale of tobacco) (amendment bill)
and he brought many many many things to show the mps!
like, Electronic cigarettes( not sold in singapore).
its like, YOU NEED TO CHARGE IT!
and its electronic so it will produce nicotine and light up!
0.0
i think you can reuse it after you charge it0.0
like, you need to charge batteries before you smoke!
HAHAHA!!
so cute!
and the funniest thing was that he said
"there is a safety sign that says 'SMOKING IS BAD, E-CIGAR IS GOOD."
LOL!
still got cigarettes in form of sweets and everything. super funny:)
not sold in singapore of course:)

haha:)

not bad~

but erm, for some of the other stuff like the flooding thingy...

erm, didnt really pay attention.

0.0

haha

but i pinched myself awake^^

hahah

okieeeeee then~ BYES!

2010-07-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

today was superrrrrr short!
915-1045 :Bio
1045-1115:Recess
1115-1145:LA
1145-1215:History
1215-145:Chinese test
so short right!~
hahaha
stayed with khei khei darling till 7.45 to finish storyboard
and went with her and chester to aljunied for dinner
then to take IC photo........
very weird
but nvm....
hahaha:)
hmmmm
ME WANS HONEY ICE BLENDED WITH PEARL^^!!!

2010-07-13T20:17:00.008+08:00

HEYYYY!
the long long tuesday is finally over.
hahah
had gastric pain at the last lesson.
hais.
hate it when my stomach hurts.
i rather i had a terrible headache or sth..
thx to all who showed concerns
chinny for offering to treat me:)
and yuhao for the biscuits,sweets and chocolate. :)
Financial Literacy was pretty fun!
chem prac was well, erm. bit more complicated than usual.
i seriously think that Mr Lim rocks...
as in, not every teacher can go around corrected everybody in their mistakes in prac.
like, he was the only teacher there to see through our practical?
i bet he had a hard time lar!
but he didnt even raise his voice or anything
even went around with a smile
and patiently teaching noobs like me.
yeah....^^
the rest of the day was normal..
couldnt understand trigo as usual:(
went home with DARLING!!!
met germain, mei you, kaiyi and yiying too~

MY DARLING!!!! so cute right!!

During idmiiiiiiii...

me and yihfang!

Little Daniel~

Cousin's Wedding~

KBOX DATE WITH XIAOMIN AND XIAOMIN ONLY!

thats allllll~

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